New start. Leaving behind

Basically, I was self destructing.
Ruining relationships between myself&friends, my boyfriend, and everyone close to me.
I was tearing myself apart inside out& couldn't take it anymore.
Hit rockbottom, God picked me up and let me know things have to change, or I won't survive.
So I'm starting new.
Started a new blog- GothicKittyRamblings.
It will be my new start.
I'm changing, for the best.
It was time to let ana and so much more go.
Follow my new blog if you want.
I love you all dearly.
But this is goodbye to this blog.
Thankyou all for the support&love you have given me<3

Misaki

I hate, everything about you.

I hate myself.
Completely.
I look in the mirror, and just loathe myself.
I've completely lost respect for myself&my body.
Won't be eating tommorow.
Housework&working out will be my day.
Decided I don't deserve sleep either. So haven't been to bed yet.
3:44am.
Will be packing&cleaning.
Have to keep moving.
All that fat I ate today.
I don't deserve sleep.
Will lose this fat.
Will look amazing in my dress&costume.
I will be happy.

I hate everything about myself.
I can't stick to a diet.
I've gotten so fat.
So ugly.
I WILL LOSE THIS WEIGHT!

I have to.
Soon.

Sweetdreams all
xxx

Biggest fail yet...New day

So basically ana hates me..i've screwed up completely.
Haven't been able to blog, or to get the courage to look at the scales for the last week.
I've been really sick with this flu and chest infection&croup...been using that as an excuse to eat whatever I want and make myself insanely fat...Am on antibiotics. Have such a bad cough, it's aweful. Exausting!

My stomach looks pregnant...been hiding from mirrors too.
Looking on everyones latest journal/blogs, i'm kind of relieved that i'm not the only one who's had a bad week. Makes me feel not so alone.
Been watching ana movies and clips tonight.
Am now inspired enough to start my diet tommorow!
Black coffee&green apples, here I come!
Will do a big shop tommorow! =)
Going to church at 9am tommorow.grrrr. Parents choice. Not happy!
Means getting up at 7:45am =(
Bit too wound up to sleep just yet.
Took my meds. Just feel so down and worthless.
So fat.
Horrible.
New goal weight is 100lbs ^_^
Everyone else on here measures in pounds, so I looked it up, and decided 100 sounds really good to me! Currently am 123lbs...O_O SO FAT!!!
Thought 100 sounds so much nicer. It's a bit under my goal weight, but oh well!
Means I have to lose 23lbs, or 11kg.
Yah-ness.
Wish me luck guys!!!

Love to all my beautiful followers!
Think thin <3
xxx